God what the fuck is wrong with me? Wait dont answer that...I don't really want to know. Just an hour or two ago i felt so happy so content...and now well now i just feel fucked up. Won't someone please help me? Tell me what I'm supposed to do. I wish I could change the way things are but I can't. How have I gotten through life? Many nights of praying that the future will be better...then the future comes and it still isn't better...you think I would have learned by now, that i'll never get what I truly want, that things will never get better, that my life will always be one big horrible mess. Can you tell I'm depressed tonight? I feel like such a loser. A big fat ugly poor loser. I think Im gonna go before I start making you depressed too. Ta ta, RACH
good night - Saturday, Sept. 03, 2005
Shine - Saturday, Sept. 03, 2005
casey at the bat - Thursday, Aug. 11, 2005
Never Been Happier - Tuesday, May. 03, 2005
end of hiatus - Monday, Apr. 11, 2005
