It may be the end of us, but it�s also a beginning
Our battle we have lost, but my struggle I am winning
Too late to pick up the pieces
Too quick to move on
The love that was always there
Is now so suddenly gone
She may be better for you than I could ever have been
But why�d you have to hide it from me
Like you were committing some evil sin
Oh well it�s over there�s no turning back
I�m so weary and tired I could go hit the sack
I�m so lonely and scared, you caught me unaware
You took my beautiful wedding gown and gave it one big tear
It will get better, I know for a fact
You thought you knew me, but you didn�t know jack
About my loves, my fears, my hates
How I loved pizza, was afraid of drowning and hated roller skates
It may be the end of us, but it�s also a beginning
The universe will keep expanding, and my world will keep spinning
Yes my relationship with Nathan is officially over�guys and gals, I�m single again! Isn�t that wicked cool? ^__^ It�s gonna take some getting used to, considering it just happened yesterday�but I�m sure it�s for the best. I know I�ve got to keep a positive attitude about it. It�s so freaking tough though. When your heart�s breaking, when the tears are pouring from your eyes�not like I�m crying all the time but every once in a while it hits me what has happened and I just start balling. Anyways, maybe I should hook up with Bill again�old Bill I mean, not goth Bill or skater Bill. Bill was hot, in an older more experienced way. Maybe what I need right now is not love, and promises, and long term commitments�maybe I just need some hot passionate love-making. But it will be on my terms, and I won�t let him talk me into doing anything I don�t want to do.
As always, RACH
good night - Saturday, Sept. 03, 2005
Shine - Saturday, Sept. 03, 2005
casey at the bat - Thursday, Aug. 11, 2005
Never Been Happier - Tuesday, May. 03, 2005
end of hiatus - Monday, Apr. 11, 2005
