I’m sitting here at my computer, in the fading light with a hazelnut cream candle’s aroma delighting my nose. I’m listening to the song Splash Waterfalls by Ludacris (hence the title of this diary entry). It’s the dirty version HEHE. It’s funny because this girl says f**k me like every ten seconds LOL. So how was your day? Mine was alright…I went to see the doctor about my medicine. He changed a couple things and hopefully that will help with the anxiety and other problems. I was anxious just sitting there in the waiting room. I got to see Nikki a little today. She had some errands to run and she invited me to go along.
I’m a part-time cutter. I don’t know why…but every once in a while I cut myself. They’re usually just small cuts, but for some reason cutting helps me feel a little better. I wore a long sleeved shirt to my appointment today because I didn’t want the doctor to see the cut on my arm. Anyways, there you have it, yet another flaw in my arsenal of super-flaws.
There’s blood on my arm
There’s blood on my sleeve
I’m feeling paralyzed
Like Christopher Reeve
Why do I cut myself
Why I do cause myself pain
Is it because I have an agenda
To pour my life down the drain
I feel so numb, I feel so dumb
Is there something wrong with my brain?
Okay, how’d I end up being so negative again? Well since I’m a blonde now, I’ll tell a little blonde joke to lighten the mood.
Q: How does a blonde hold her liquor?
A: By the ears.
On that note, this is RACH saying, “SEE YA LATER, SKATER!”