I�m sitting here at my computer, in the fading light with a hazelnut cream candle�s aroma delighting my nose. I�m listening to the song Splash Waterfalls by Ludacris (hence the title of this diary entry). It�s the dirty version HEHE. It�s funny because this girl says f**k me like every ten seconds LOL. So how was your day? Mine was alright�I went to see the doctor about my medicine. He changed a couple things and hopefully that will help with the anxiety and other problems. I was anxious just sitting there in the waiting room. I got to see Nikki a little today. She had some errands to run and she invited me to go along.
I�m a part-time cutter. I don�t know why�but every once in a while I cut myself. They�re usually just small cuts, but for some reason cutting helps me feel a little better. I wore a long sleeved shirt to my appointment today because I didn�t want the doctor to see the cut on my arm. Anyways, there you have it, yet another flaw in my arsenal of super-flaws.
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There�s blood on my arm
There�s blood on my sleeve
I�m feeling paralyzed
Like Christopher Reeve
Why do I cut myself
Why I do cause myself pain
Is it because I have an agenda
To pour my life down the drain
I feel so numb, I feel so dumb
Is there something wrong with my brain?
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Okay, how�d I end up being so negative again? Well since I�m a blonde now, I�ll tell a little blonde joke to lighten the mood.
Q: How does a blonde hold her liquor?
A: By the ears.
On that note, this is RACH saying, �SEE YA LATER, SKATER!�
good night - Saturday, Sept. 03, 2005
Shine - Saturday, Sept. 03, 2005
casey at the bat - Thursday, Aug. 11, 2005
Never Been Happier - Tuesday, May. 03, 2005
end of hiatus - Monday, Apr. 11, 2005