How stupid could I be
You�re the only one I can see
As I flirt with those guys on the net
You�re the one I cannot forget
They�re bodies are so hot
But their names I forgot
The only name I remember is yours
I want to get you behind closed doors
I wish you loved me
Is it only a fantasy
That we could be together
No matter the state of the weather
Could I be falling for you
Is there anything I could do
To make you love me
How stupid could I be
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Why do I keep thinking that I could get Alex to love me? Maybe it�s because I�m so obsessed with him that it has blinded me to reality. I�ve never really lived in reality�I�ve always lived in a fantasy world�a world that plays by my rules and my beliefs. Why can�t I see that he could never love me? Or could he? Who knows. Do I even give a damn? Well�yeah, duh. I want him to love me, like I love him. Even if he liked me�that would be good too.
I�ve been working again on my business�I did some brainstorming last night. I got some really good ideas. Like instead of trying to get my play on Broadway I could have a theater/skate park built for it. I would have to raise money to do that though. I would need a lot of money to do it. I also want to do self-publishing�publish my own books.
So as you can see I have a lot of plans�will they ever become reality? Only time will tell. RACH
good night - Saturday, Sept. 03, 2005
Shine - Saturday, Sept. 03, 2005
casey at the bat - Thursday, Aug. 11, 2005
Never Been Happier - Tuesday, May. 03, 2005
end of hiatus - Monday, Apr. 11, 2005
