Sex is good, right? Especially your first time with the opposite sex. Today for me will be that day..I'm nervous, especially since it's going to be taped. That turns me on, thinking of being taped, yet at the same time I'm afraid I wont be good enough for it. Ah well does the expression "take 2" mean anything? lol and then tonight i will probably get to see mattie..... he's so hot so sexy I love his smile, his laugh, his voice.... I hope someday I'll be his choice... to be with til the end of time... every mountain with him i'll climb.. and scream out loud how much i love... the guy I can't stop thinking of... his every wish I will command... and someday soon he'll be my man. MATTIE I want you so much.