I gotta stop lying to myself. I�ll start by telling some of the hard, cold truth now.
The Alex I think I�m in love with is not the real Alex. He�s just a kid. I�m not really in love with him. I just think I am.
I�m an almost 28 year old unemployed, disabled woman who owns practically nothing and has no real hopes for the future. I owe lots of money, including a large school loan and I�m about to go bankrupt.
I�m immature, have a bad temper, and am too sensitive for my own good.
I have many addictions including smoking, masturbating, and looking up internet porn.
See, that wasn�t so hard, was it? It hurts to look at myself in this way, it makes me depressed in fact, but I think it�s good to tell myself the truth. I need to know what�s broke before I can fix it.
Right?
Yours truly, RACH
good night - Saturday, Sept. 03, 2005
Shine - Saturday, Sept. 03, 2005
casey at the bat - Thursday, Aug. 11, 2005
Never Been Happier - Tuesday, May. 03, 2005
end of hiatus - Monday, Apr. 11, 2005
